VALENTINES DAY 2016 | JOSEPH VALO III

This is my video message to my soul mate, best friend and lover Sarah Afshar.  She got me this amazing Fender Guitar for Valentines Day. I could not be any happier. Sarah, if you are reading this, you complete me in every way possible and I'm blessed, thankful and lucky to have you in my life. The song played in the video is "Golpari" written and composed by Sarah Afshar and Joseph Valo III.

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Star Wars: The Force Awakens
In theaters December 18th

I think George Lucas is a genius when it comes to science fiction. He managed to create a brand that has branched out for almost 40 years. When you look back at the original Star Wars movie that came out in 1977 who knew that it would go on to become the biggest and most successful film franchise in the history of entertainment.

What I really like about this new movie is the fact they are bringing back Harrison Ford. The original Han Solo. I think he will bring so much to this movie. I also like that they are bring back Carrie Fisher, the original Princess Leila. To be honest, they should have brought them back previously.  

I think the Star Wars: The Force Awakens trailer looks great (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGbxmsDFVnE) and just gives you a lot of preview. I don't know if you knew this, but this trailer broke records when it first came out. Over 30 million views in just 24 hours which proves Star Wars really is the most popular film franchise and has a lot of fans.

I can't wait until December 18, 2015 which I do believe is the Friday before Christmas. Christmas is the Friday after, so they were smart putting out this movie before then. I can't wait to see Star Wars: The Force Awakens.

Best in Beauty 2015: Men

My girlfriend Sarah Afshar is a beauty writer for Examiner.com. I am very proud of everything she does and I love her so much (and Sarah if you are reading, I love you so much). For Examiner, Sarah created the Best in Beauty Awards and I do believe this is the 2nd year she has done the awards. She decided for the men's portion of the awards, she would feature my picks for best men's grooming products. I really enjoyed helping and am looking forward to helping next year.

If you haven't had the chance yet, you need to read the article. Check out the article here http://www.examiner.com/article/best-beauty-2015-men. I recently got a job and have a lot of good things to share with you, as I'm working on some good things for grooming and the holidays so stay tuned for that

Mike Boudet of Sword and Scale

Over a year ago, I was contacted by a man named Mike Boudet. Boudet is an independent podcaster and is known for his true crime podcast, Sword and Scale. He was interested in speaking with me about Toni Ingram. I went on his site when he contacted me and noticed that MayraMM (the woman who is stalking and harassing Toni Ingram and my girlfriend Sarah Afshar) was a regular contributor to the site, so immediately I just knew that if I were to be interviewed, my words would have been edited or changed.

Using my abilities, I saw a connection between him and Tricia Griffith, the administrator of Websleuths and of course, MayraMM (Mayra Martinez) the woman who has been stalking and harassing Toni Ingram and my girlfriend Sarah Afshar. I was able to pick up that Boudet was interested in ratings. In fact, after the podcast about Toni Ingram my girlfriend Sarah Afshar was uploaded (which is filled with nothing but lies) he started spamming the links on my tumblr, where I proceeded to defend my girlfriend from the lies and untruths of Michael Odegard of Portland.

As I sat at the computer, it dawned on me that he was a friend of Tricia Griffith's. I decided to channel to see what Griffith was doing and immediately was able to see her behind all of the lies, the slander, the libel, and everything else trying to discredit Toni Ingram and my girlfriend Sarah Afshar. I also see her as angry that Toni refused a second interview with her and even pissed that Toni didn't send over the evidence she has. Why would Toni? That evidence is sealed and locked for the CBI, not some woman who spends her life online spreading lies about innocent people. I was also able to see that Griffith had an agenda and even went so far to involve other people. One of them being Terri Stipp.

Then, I started to realize that Boudet is this same type of person. Someone who is angry, someone who - if he does not get his way and gets angry to the level of spite. I would say about a month later Boudet was libeling me, my girlfriend Sarah Afshar, and Toni Ingram referring to us as trolls who are behind network of hate sites. Hate sites? The guy was literally spreading propaganda simply because we didn't do the podcast. Then, he posted link to one of the sites directly on his Sword and Scale site. I looked at the one site he shared and there was no hate on there. I channeled and was able to see that one of Morgan's close friends, one that no one knows created the one site and the other was created by someone who has a daughter and wants justice for Morgan's murder.

Boudet went on to say that me and Sarah were harassing Michael Odegard. A few people defended us and were attacked by the crazy stalking hag from Oregon. Some people claim that Boudet never put their comments through. I mean, Boudet was presenting stuff that is not even true and stuff didn't involve Toni Ingram. They even referred to Odegard as mentally challenged man and we were harassing him, blah, blah. All lies. Boudet even added more lies to story by saying Odegard blogged about the Morgan Ingram case. This is a total lie. Odegard blogged about my girlfriend many times and even went on to spread horrible, untrue lies about her (which can be seen and heard here), right before posting that he felt upset she ignored him (and Odegard I have all of the screenshots you don't want anyone else to see of those comments along with the remarks you made about my girlfriend's vagina you sick piece of shit) The fact is, Odegard, the stalker from Portland never blogged about Toni Ingram or the Morgan Ingram case. This is just more lies and I have the evidence of this.

Mike Boudet of Sword and Scale is an accessory to the lies which makes him a liar and I am calling him out. It's disappointing because at first I was convinced Boudet really wanted to hear my side along with my girlfriend's side. Obviously he didn't. Shortly after he published these podcasts, he was promoting Tricia Griffith's radio show asking listener's to check it out. I also know Tricia Griffith of Websleuths is a jealous slob who hates my girlfriend because she interviewed Toni Ingram which is why she recruited Terri Stipp to create hate sites about both Toni and my girlfriend and anyone who supports Toni. Toni Ingram has a ton of evidence and as a psychic medium I was able to see everything that happened. She is not a liar and she is not crazy. She's telling the truth about what happened to her daughter, something that none of these people defending Keenan have yet to do.

Question of the Day: Do you still talk to the Gods n Aliens?

Q: What's up Joe? How are you? I was a fan of the band you were in called Gods and Aliens. I saw you perform at the Deadhorse back in early 2013 shortly before you parted ways with the band. I really love The Calling. It was the best song in the entire play lineup and I really loved the solo you performed in the beginning. You are a phenomenal bass player. I wanted to ask, do you still talk to the band?

First, I want to say thank you. Thank you for the wonderful compliment. One of the reasons I stayed with Gods n Aliens for so long was because of not only the music, but because of the fans and people like you, so your words are appreciated.

Unfortunately, I don't talk to the band anymore and haven't talked to them in almost 3 years. I think it's better this way simply because I am working on a new music project right now with my girlfriend Sarah.

Corroboration of Crazy: Michael Odegard

"This is where Mr. Odegard insinuates that Brian Mann,
My girlfriend Sarah Afshar and I are
 hiding from the police, but the truth is that we really are not."

In recent months, I have had the pleasure of experiencing what it is like to be cyberstalked by someone I have never met in my life. And my cyberstalker is Michael Odegard from Portland, Oregon. The man has spread so many lies about me, my girlfriend, and basically anyone else he wants to blame for his lack of success on. I took the opportunity to defend myself, as well as, my girlfriend in a podcast.

"This is where Mr. Odegard claims that Brian Mann and I
 impersonated a Federal Law Enforcement Officer"

Mr. Odegard called my phone many times in between late 2012 until mid 2014. After I made the podcast exposing this, they stopped. And although they continue, they are not as intimidating or scary. Rewinding back to 2014, I remember this one time, I actually decided to call one of the numbers back. The number lead to a Portland business called The Black Cat Café, which was then called Legends.

"Mr. Odegard is claiming that Brian Man and I Photoshop his picture"

 It dawned on me that something was weird, just not right when I called back.  The person who answered the phone was definitely him trying to pose as a manager. The person had Odegard's voice and even went on to say that he hasn't seen Odegard in months. Almost like Odegard intentionally called to get me to respond to his antics. After I called, I noticed that the libel grew more online and all of the phone calls just kept coming at a rapid rate. I would get more private and restricted calls, but when I would see records of my phone statements, they would show a Portland number calling me.

"Mr. Odegard is calling both Brian Mann and I Vigilantes
And clearly we are not!" 

Thanks to people who care about me and my well being, I was able to do a background check on the number. The number linked directly to Odegard, as it was his own personal number. I never called it or anything, but I made sure to block it in case the calls would persist.

"Mr. Odegard is saying
 the police want to talk to Brian Man and I,
But yet we have never been contacted by the police!"

Fast forward a few months, Michael Odegard took to blogger to create one of his infamous hate blogs. As you can see by the screenshots I am displaying, you can get an idea of what I have had to endure (and still continue to endure) from this very crazy and unhinged man from Portland. The sad thing is, this man cannot be reasoned with because he has no conscious.

"Mr. Odegard is accusing my girlfriend of being in charge
 of the hate blogs about him,
the truth is, that she doesn't want nothing to do with him at all!"

Odegard harassed my girlfriend Sarah for years because he had an obsession with Sarah's mother. You see, Sarah's mom went into a movie chatroom on MSN where she befriended Odegard. After discovering Odegard wasn't someone she was interested in communicating with, she cut all strings with him. When I contacted him in late 2012 on Facebook asking him to cut his losses in move on, it set him off and I have been a target of his obsession ever since.

The truth is: I never met Brian Mann. I have never been to Portland. Hell, I have never been to the state of Oregon. I don't deserve this. No one does. I really wish Odegard would see that he is wasting his time and life harassing me and other innocent people and the truth is, I never did anything to this guy.

Happy National Girlfriend Day!

Hey everyone. How are you? I didn't realize it was 'National Girlfriend Day' until I saw the trend #NationalGirlfriendDay on Twitter. I have to tell you, I have been blessed with the most breathtakingly beautiful, classy, loving, and caring woman in the universe. Her name is Sarah Afshar. You see, Sarah and I began our journey together 18 years ago. We met through mutual friends and hit it off instantly. After we went our separate ways, my life took a turn for the worse. I basically became a person that I knew I was not and just left myself go. Fast forward to about 15 years later, we decided that we not only thought we were soulmates, but knew it too, so we got back together.

The thing with Sarah is that our love, connection, bond, and everything else has grown extremely strong. We have something that I know many couples do not have. It is something so undying, true , pure and never ending. We have seen our fair shares of ups and downs, our highs and lows, and the greatest and not so great moments as well. To me, Sarah is more than just my best friend and lover, but my soul mate and everything else in between.

Every time I gaze in to Sarah's gorgeous chocolate diamond eyes, I am reminded of what I have and how lucky I am. Sarah puts me under you hypnotic spell and I get lost for weeks on end. We make the most perfect team and as a couple we bring out the greatness in each other, in every way possible.

There is never a moment that I don't think of Sarah because she is my love of my life. When I think of the girls I have dated in my past, looking back, I had no connection to them and never had any motivation or inspiration to do anything. I remember years ago, I took a girl on a date to McDonalds. I never tried because there was no connection and it was deja vu, especially when I lived in Texas.

With Sarah, it is the opposite. She is the epitome of what I want in a woman. She's perfect and to me, she is the total package. She gives me motivation and inspiration, and quite frankly, she brings out the greatness in me in every way possible. 

I just want to say this: Sarah Afshar, you are the greatest woman to ever come into my life, as you are the greatest person to enter it and I am very blessed, honored, thankful, and lucky to have you. I love you, Sarah Afshar <3 Happy National Girlfriend Day!

This is what cyber defamation looks like!

My stalker from Portland is at it again. *Yawn*

Question of the Day: Why is Michael Odegard saying you are stalking him?

Q: Hi Joe. How are you? I was listening to episode 12 of Sword & Scale and I cannot help but notice that Boudet allowed a man named Michael Odegard from Portland to libel you and your girlfriend. You could tell he was lying by what he said, but my question for you is, why is he saying you are stalking him?

This man, out of the blue, decided he was going to lie about me, slander me, and as you stated, libel me simply because I recorded a podcast telling the truth defending myself and my girlfriend. In the podcast, I simply told the truth and exposed his lies for what they are, lies. You can listen to the podcast here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0nctMBJV5s. After the podcast, he created multiple hate blogs about me and tried to perpetuate the idea that I am conspiring with Brian Mann (a guy from Portland, who I have never met mind you) to ruin his life. He is trying to cover up the fact he is a liar by painting me as a stalker. It doesn't bother me because I know it is not true. He also knows it is not true. He's just saying it for his 15 minutes of fame. He's also trying to blame his lack of success on me simply because I defended myself from his lies, as well. So in the end of everything, it is unemployed 40+ year old Michael Coleman Odegard from Portland, Oregon who is stalking me, stalking my girlfriend, and stalking the other people he lies about including Brian Mann.

Question of the Day: Who is your celebrity crush?

Q: Joe, I am curious. I read on a website that you had a crush on Kate Upton. Is this true? Who is your celebrity crush?

Honestly, that is not true. Someone is either impersonating me or just assuming that. I think Kate Upton is very average looking. I really don't have a crush right now because I am with the most beautiful woman in the world. Before I was with Sarah though, my crush was Kim Kardashian and it is because she reminded me a lot of Sarah. The Kim Kardashian 4-5 years ago was very attractive. I remember being at the gym at the fire department in McKees Rocks working out and the Keeping Up With The Kardashian show came on TV. My first thought was "is that Sarah?" when I first saw Kim. I have to admit, I have a thing for Middle Eastern women. I will say this. although I have blue eyes, I am not into women with light eyes. Just isn't my thing. Persian women are the hottest and I have always leaned towards the big, dark exotic eyes. I also love women who are short and curvy and have weight in all of the right places. Sarah is everything I want, need, and desire in a woman. She is not only strikingly stunning, but she's intelligent, classy, compassionate, and very talented too. She always puts others before her and always loves helping other people. She helped me many times including in recent years when I was at my lowest. I have never met a woman with such determination, spirit, and fire like my girlfriend. I have known Sarah for 18 years and in my 37 years of living, I have never met a woman at all like her.

More from the man from Portland who I have never met.

Is Michael Odegard drunk or just so obsessed with me that he failed to read what he typed before hitting submit? The guy just won't stop. Still trying to understand how I can conspire with someone whom I have never met. With that said, I have filed multiple police reports and have case numbers to back it up which leads me to ask, who is stalking who?

TBT: NYE 2011

New Year's Eve 2011 was one of the most memorable New Year's Eves I have ever had. It was not the best though. You see, at the time I worked a full-time job where I was a chef. I had time off on December 31, 2011 but worked as a volunteer firefighter. That was an on-call/full-time job too. The fire call came in the early morning of New Years. And this fire call was like no other. and here is what happened. It was me and another fireman that went in and did the primary search on the 2nd floor in the AB corner of the building. And while doing the primary search the other fireman found him and we went to get him out and he ran out of air so he went out and I stayed in and another fireman came in to take his place. The other fireman that came into relieve the other fireman was in shock and he never experienced anything like that before. So I had to pick him up and do most of the lifting. I basically lifted him out of the window to the fireman. And victim was a big man. At least 250-275 pounds. 

I shared the post on my Facebook on January 1, 20012

Link to story: http://pittsburgh.cbslocal.com/2011/12/31/2-killed-in-mckees-rocks-fire/ 

As a firefighter you see everything. And although I have seen a lot worse, it was very sad because both men (including Gino) unfortunately did not make it. By the time we got there, it was too late. I thought in my heart that I could save them. It was very sad to witness let alone experience. The only thing I could do was have pray for these two souls and their families and sympathize with their loved ones.

I was staying with my sister and her husband at the time. They had some friends over and made some food. I wasn't hungry. I was still shaken up. I decided to get a shower. After my shower I looked at my phone and noticed that I received a text followed by a call from Sarah. For those of you who do not know, Sarah is my girlfriend right now and I love her more than anything in this world. She had bought a new phone and was taking a selfie of her NYE outfit and was comparing the resolution of the pictures.

One of Sarah's friends took this picture of Sarah and sent it to me.

My girlfriend who is also my soul mate, best friend, lover, and everything else in between. At the time, we were just friends and we talked, but we were not dating or in a relationship. She recently bought a new phone and was taking selfies which she published on her Facebook and which she sent to me. That is when I realized how much I really did miss her. I explained to her how my night went.

Sarah smiling as she snaps a picture of herself with her new camera. Sarah's smiles always cheer me up.

At the time, Sarah and I lived far apart. She was in Dillon, MT and I was near Pittsburgh. We did keep in touch, but we did not talk often. It was more of a sporadic thing I guess you could say. Sarah made me feel more at peace. She informed me that I was a hero and warrior and not many people in this world would risk their life to save another. She explained that even though they died, the effort is recognized and that everything in life happens for a reason. A reason we cannot explain. It made me feel better talking to her.

Sarah took this photo trying to show me her entire outfit. She took this with her old camera and sent this to me before posting it on her Facebook. 

Sarah was not only thousands of miles away, but 2 time zones away from me. She was having a party there in Montana for her and some friends and I was getting ready to head to bed. The next day I went into work thinking it was going to be great. After all, it was finally 2012, the new year. Well, I was wrong. I ended up breaking my big toe. What happened was the equipment fell on my big toe.

I made a post about breaking my big toe on Facebook.

This is how both my New Year's Eve of 2011 and my New Year of 2012 went. In 24 hours I have experienced a lot and those are the days I will never forget. 

Review: StrapSnake Guitar Cotton Guitar Strap

Photo taken be Joseph Valo III

        As an avid musician, I know the importance of having a great and durable guitar strap. It can't be too wide or too thin and be of the right material that is able to withstand the punishment of everyday use. Just recently I got this guitar strap from my girlfriend by surprise and I thought I would do a review on the guitar strap since I didn't review anything that has to do with musical instruments or music. 

       The guitar strap is from a company called StrapSnake and you can find this guitar strap here on amazon for $25.00 but its on sale for $15.88. and they have some other products there as well.

       The guitar strap is all cotton weave that's thick and heavy with extended thick leather ends. The guitar strap adjusts nice and easy too. Also it feels good on the shoulder too with out the feeling of the strap digging in to the shoulder as well.   

       There is no cons to this product as everything is great about this product. 

       I would definitely recommend this to any other musician just beginning and the professional. I will be definitely be using this guitar strap to its fullest!!!!   


Product disclaimer: Gift from girlfriend.

Short Story: How I Became A Super Hero By Accident. by Joseph Valo III

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Sometimes I just feel like I'm destined to be a part of something big. When I was I high school I played sports and did a lot of things that would drive me to the edge. After high school, I joined the Army to become a Ranger. After doing two tours in Afghanistan I decided to move on to something new and exciting. So I moved to Pittsburgh to be close to my family and joined the Pittsburgh Bureau of Fire. Since then, I have been on some pretty messed up fire calls and this one is like no other.... I Can remember this call like it's the back of my hand, after this night and this fire call my life will never be the same..
Everyone was asleep, the gong goes off, and they are scrambling to get their gear and head to the trucks. While making my way to get to the engine I over hear a conversation between Chief Sanchez and Captain Lockhart" Be Careful! I heard that the government is doing some kind of TOP SECRET testing in the facility" As I get on the engine I get that feeling I had before, but only stronger!! We roll up on scene, as I was getting out Captain Lockhart grabbed me and and said did a face to face and said, " We have a report of some one being trapped on the second floor, get Dennis Salinger, and Angela Barrett to go in and do the primary search.

That's when he grabbed me by the bunker coat and did a face to face, " BE QUICK!, BE SMART! and GOD'S SAKE DON'T BE A HERO!" ( which means DON"T do anything stupid, use common sense). I met up with Dennis and Angela and briefed them on the situation stating "There's some one trapped up on the second floor and its our job to find and extract that person safely, grab your equipment, WE'RE GOING IN! " As we made our way up the stair well we could feel the intense heat on the floor.. We opened the door to the second floor door, and there was a heat wave that hit us. Dennis said, " If we soon don't find the person this place is gonna go! Angela said, " Don't ruin the moment Dennis!" I grabbed both of them and said " GET IT TOGETHER!"

After searching the first to rooms and finding nothing we start to search the third room which was the lab. When we we're about done searching the room there was a series of explosions and we hurried back Dennis , which was at the door. A bright flash and what seemed to be the largest boom that I have ever heard came from my right side. so I rushed to Dennis, and Angela and pushed them out of the room, and all I remember is trying to get them out when a table filled with a bunch of different beakers filled with odd looking fluid.

I remember getting rushed in to the E.R. and being surrounded by nurses and doctors trying to cut off my bunker gear and one of the nurses said to me in a calm voice," This will help with the pain". When I awoke I was in the hospital surrounded by all of my friends and family. Angela said," If it wasn't for you doing what you did we would be dead." Then Angela and Dennis both said thanks. After being in the hospital for a couple of days they left me go home and it was in enough time to watch the super bowl.

We had a bunch of friends over to watch the Super Bowl. It was the Pittsburgh Steelers vs. the Seattle Sea Hawks. I was in the kitchen getting something out of the refrigerator when I heard a very bad call by the referee. That started to make my blood boil. It felt like I was having a hot flash and I fell to my knees. In a split second the hot flash went away and that's when I noticed the kitchen was on fire. I ran into the living room to tell everyone to get out, but they were already were gone. I ran outside and I could hear everyone screaming and shouting " YOU'RE ON FIRE!!" Dennis went and grabbed a blanket from one of the neighbors and tackled me in a huge pile of snow.

Everyone was staring at me in shock and awe.... as I looked around standing in a creator of once was a huge pile of snow and ice. Then I said, "I feel a draft". Dennis came over and wrapped the half charred remains of once was the blanket and took me over to the car, pulled down the visor and said, "What's up with your eyes?". As I looked into the mirror in the visor, I noticed that my eyes were glowing red. Then I passed out.

When I came too, I noticed that five of our closest friends were hovering over me. I don't know why they were staring at me but I thought it might have been out of fear, pity or never seen anyone with bright red glowing eyes. Angela came over and felt my head and said that I was burning up and gave me one of those thermometers with the mercury in it. It only lasted for a couple of seconds when the thermometer shattered into little pieces allowing the mercury to go everywhere. They insisted that I go to the E.R. to get checked out, but I said that I'm ok.

I took Angela and Dennis out on the porch and asked them if they knew anywhere that I could go for a while and clear my mind for a couple of days. Dennis said that his family owns a cabin on Mt. Davis right by High Point Lake in Somerset County. Angela then said " That's it, just the three of us will go. Because you are like a brother to us and we want to be there for you like you were there for us."

To be continued....

Skin Care Isn't Just For Women It's For Men Too

When it comes to skin care for men alot of men think: "nah, it's not for me or, us men are not supposed to do stuff like that.. because it makes us look like and feel like a woman..." Well, what they don't know is, that the skin is the largest organ for the human body and like with the rest of the other organs you have to take care of it.

There is alot of skin care products out there for men. We just have to look and swallow our pride and ask for some assistance, whether its a close female friend or someone else that you may know. 

My next couple of reviews are going to be about mens skin care. So.. just remember that skincare is not just for women but it's also for men as well.

Rainer Jundt speaks out since Morgan's murder, an interview

Recently, I had the honor and privilege to talk to Rainer,who knew Morgan Ingram better than anyone except her family. Rainer is a great guy who helps his community and who loved Morgan very dearly. Well, let's get to the interview with Rainer and see what he had to say.

Joe: How are you, Rainer? The world wants to know, who is Rainer Jundt?

Rainer: I'll do my best, I'm still figuring me out too.. On the outside I am a writer, an athlete, a traveler and practicing EMT. I like to wear leathers and be in the element while riding my Harley, Nyx. When I was little I always loved to pretend I was some warrior or knight, guess this was as close as I could get to armor and a horse. When we would go on car rides, even up until present day, I loved to stick my head out the window so I could feel the wind on my face...its always centered me somehow, made me feel closer to who I am. I knew when I grew up I was either going to have to sprout some wings are put some underneath my legs. I love riding cause for awhile, I can fly again. I have lived a few different places in my life and visited many, New Orleans being one of my favorites, but its the Rocky Mountains that have forever stolen my heart, and no matter how much I travel away from them, they always seem to breath me back in. The journey has yet to begin and yet it feels like the second time I've walked this path, a life already lived. Who am I? I am a son and a brother, a friend and an enemy, a teacher and a student, a passionate protector of the things I love and a warrior of my ideals. And once, I was a star crossed lover.      

Joe: How did you meet Morgan Ingram? When did you meet Morgan Ingram?

Rainer: I met Morgan when I was in the 4th grade, she was in 6th grade at the time. We grew up together, as friends, then best friends and on my transition into high school, as lovers. Morgan and I spent five years in romance, but had known each other for nine years in all...nearly half my life. I remember the first time I was ever really introduced to her, I was shy back then, I barely looked anyone in the eye for long. But those green eyes caught mine, held mine. There was something so easy about being with Morgan, at least for me, it was second nature.

Joe: What was Morgan like? The world wants to know, who was Morgan Ingram?

Rainer: Morgan was, as cliché as it may be, pure light. I have never in all my life met someone with such vivaciousness for living, such pride in self. It was contagious, to say the least, and I felt honored that she saw that same strength and light in me, that she chose me to be her partner, her Knight. Morgan loved puzzles, and as we both loved to paint and write, we spent countless hours together doing just that, especially at the beginning of our romantic relationship when Morgan was still recovering from carbon monoxide poisoning. Her physical body had been made temporarily fragile from the exposure and we took it slow the first handful of months that we were together, but I didn't mind, we could have been starving in the desert together and somehow we would have found something to laugh about. We sparked a sort of playfulness in each other that was inescapable. Soon she was living life to the fullest, pushing the boundaries with me at her side. Whether we were dancing in the rain, running up a mountain by moonlight or tubing down the river, there was always an adventure to be had for Morgan and I, and at the end of the day we would curl up like two tired out pups.  

Joe: When was the last time you saw Morgan? When was the last time you spoke to her? What was the last thing she said to you?

Rainer: The last time I saw Morgan was over a Skype session. I was living out in Savannah, GA. She was still back in Colorado. We had our trials as lovers, but I realize now some of my faults. I left home believing that this girl and I were fated together in a sense, we had discussed it and our futures and both felt this powerful bond, which to some I know sounds silly as young as we were, but its my truth. Even when we pushed each other away, somehow, like gravity, we would fall back even closer together. We would find each other again, we promised and Ill never forget letting go of her hands for the last time, I never thought for a second when I left that it would be the last time I ever saw Morgan. She hadn't told me a lot about the stalking, and if she did make mention of anything it was written off in a very Morgan way. I understand now that she didn't want me to worry, to not focus on my own journey, even though she was scared. I never new the seriousness of the matter until it was too late. Morgan told me that day it might be best if we didn't talk for a bit, at least while I was away, it was too hard for her to see and talk to me while I was a couple thousand miles from home and we were both walking different paths. It was so hard for me too. I understood, and tried to respect her decision. A week later she was gone...

Joe: What did Morgan say about her parents? What did Morgan say about Toni and Steve?

Rainer: Morgan adored her parents more than anything in world. She loved to tell me about their epic romance having been lovers since they were our age at the time. To Morgan, her parents were a sort of inspiration, and she never wanted to let them down. The family dynamic was strong, always long talks over dinner, always communication, this family talked about nearly everything, even if the talking escalated into yelling...gotta love an italian dinner table :) We spent a lot of time with Toni and Steve too, hiking, cooking, watching movies and going on small family trips. I felt honored in the beginning that they let me into there world and there daughters world at such a tough time. It would have been only natural for them to be protective of her and her health after the carbon monoxide scare, and of course they were, but they excepted me into their family, and its still one of the greatest gift I've been given. But Morgan's ailments after her exposure to carbon monoxide also gave her a special relationship with both her parents. Bonds never grow stronger then when faced with the possibility of losing them. As a result the life threatening event only tied all of them tighter and fonder together. I'm very close with my own parents and family, and it was easy for me to see from day one that these people only wanted joy, health and love for there amazing daughter. It's what she deserved.

Joe: When you found out Morgan was dead, what went through your mind? Can you tell me?

Rainer: I wish that I could Joe. All I can say is how I remember it. I was cooking dinner and missed a call from Toni and then another call from Kate, Morgan and my best friend. I remember seeing the missed calls and being excited to call them back, since it had been a moment since we had last spoken. They had both left me a message so I entered into my voicemail not knowing that the next thing I would hear would change my life forever. “Morgan is gone...” I got Toni's voicemail first...I must have listened to the voicemail and the break in her voice a dozen times. I wanted it to be some cruel joke so desperately, but I knew Toni and Steve well, and that kind of pain has no mask...that kind of pain can't lie. It sounded like a thousand goodbyes. I was frozen, frozen with a cold that iced over mind, body and soul. I couldn't breathe, couldn't speak...couldn't move. I became very sick to my stomach and ran to the bathroom where I began to purge. I remember feeling her very close after that, a flicker of warmth in such ice. I had a somewhat out of body experience, I think, but I felt her hair in my face, like it always used to be when we slept together, tickling my nose and cheeks. For a moment there was a warmth that I can't describe, and maybe for a moment she really was there, but when I came to some sense, I was lying on my bathroom floor next to the toilet, my own hair in my face tickling my cheeks. If it had been up to me, I might have just lied there forever.

Joe: Rainer, do you think Morgan committed suicide? Do you think she took her own life?

Rainer: No I do not.  

Joe: Why do you say that?

Rainer: I've gone over it to the point of insanity in my mind and I always fall back to the same conclusion. Morgan loved life and living. She loved her family, she loved her friends and she loved me. She would have never intentionally taken her own life to escape. She was never running to begin with.

Joe: Morgan told people she was being stalked. Those people were never interviewed.

Rainer: No, and I wasn't either, which did seem odd. Being that her case had continued to change form, from the coroners decision that it was natural causes and then weeks later re-deemed as suicide... It goes with out saying that there are unanswered questions...but no one seems to really want to understand.

Joe: Do you think there are people who know what happened and are scared to come forward?

Rainer: I'm sure that there are. She was being stalked, first and for most. Even setting aside her death this leaves people of suspect.
                                                                               
Joe: What are some of the reactions of some of the people when you talk about Morgan?

Rainer: In all honesty, the subject isn't broached around me very much. People don't know how to talk to me about Morgan a lot of the time...and I guess I don't know what to say in return. Some things just go too deep for any sort of communicable reasoning. There seems to be a hesitation from everyone when it comes to the girl I used to spend all my time with.

                                                                                                                                              Joe:Rainer, how has your life been without Morgan?

Rainer: Another question that I'm not sure I can really answer. I am alive, though at times it feels strained, like I'm trying to be here, in this place, this reality that we both used to share together. I can feel her fading in a strange way, its been two and half years since her death, and suddenly the memories of our phantom love affair begin to float away like feathers drifting off into the sky. We spent so many moments together, just together, with no other witnesses to there beauty. I'm the only thing thats left that makes them real. Somehow though life has only begun I feel as though its been re-birthed. This isn't the same life I had four years ago. I feel old beyond my time, and perhaps I'm beginning to see the beauty in the littler things, I know that somehow this is my path, and I'll be alright. And yes, I have found warmth and peace sense her death, and its made me feel guilty that I can feel these things when its only been so long since she has been gone. It's conflicting to the highest regard... and I've made a lot of mistakes putting my life on hold for the past few years...including hurting someone else who is unfathomably special to me, all the while thinking that I don't deserve this happiness anymore. I think I'm finally beginning to truly believe that she would only want the best for me. I've been practicing looking to the stars at night with my heart clutched tight and telling her, simply, “Thank you.”

Joe: Do you think there will be justice for her murder?

Rainer: I've tried to stay very balanced in my out look of all the facts and fiction. I love Toni and Steve the world, and being the people that brought a person I love and trusted so much into this world, I trust and have faith in them. I believe there will be justice for Morgan.

Joe: Thanks Rainer. You are a great guy. And no one should have to endure what you , Toni,  Steve, Ryan and the rest of the family had to go through. Thank you for taking the time to share what you have to say. It means a lot. And again thank you.

I believe Morgan Ingram was murdered.

Hello! My name is Joseph Valo and I believe Morgan Ingram was murdered. Continue listening to hear my thoughts and what I believe happened on December 2, 2011. 

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